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if you get despaerate, I could zoom a call and walk around my project truck and you all could laugh at my insanity.....beyond that, I'm not too deep into the engine (yet) to get into a 6bt discussion.

I realize this.... I know this is correct. BUT... Without anything to do but stare at a wall for the last month. I'm ready to give up at times because there is no reason to get out of bed. Right now I don't have the funds to even go to my next medical appt because my last stay in Boise for 2 days wiped me out. Right now my health is based on my income till feds start kicking in. I'm still waiting on paperwork so I can get funds to even continue. THEN... Being left alone for days with zero physical contact with people. I feel like in prison in solitary confinement. Little door opens once in awhile I might get something. Mentally it very tiring. On top of having to wake up every 3 hrs to deal with my bags. Quality of sleep is gone I might get 4 to 6 hours a night maybe. Which is a huge factor in mental health too. THIS... Is why I'm looking towards zoom meeting being it allows me to interact with another human and take my mind of my stress and possibly give me a smile and lift my spirits to keep me going. Everyone knows what is going on but everyone just leaves me alone now. NO phone calls. NO visiting. I'm even willing to talk trucks for free just so I have interaction with other to possibly save my mental state.