Mopar1973Man

I'm home. Man it's so nice to crash in my own bed at night. My pain level and anxiety are much lower. My blood pressure is very easy to control using my cannabis. I also so nice to lay in bed all night and not have alarms or bag to dump every 4 hours. I got home Einar made dinner and I loaded up with plenty of food. Started hitting the vape pen I got pretty stoned last night moved to my bed and set up my night bag. Got myself hooked up and rolled over and passed out at 9pm and slept till 5am. That was awesome sleep. I feel very recharged and ready for today. My pain is like when your doing injectors the milk crate slides out from your feet and you scrap your belly on the hood latch. Internally I feel nothing. In my lower back I feel nothing. So basically I feel the skin level stuff but internally I'm a constant zero. I know I'm going to heal much faster at home than in the hospital. My anxiety is way down now too. I was anxiety drug and I'm glad I got one it helped the entire time I was in the hospital being it was on my med list. I've gotta say I'm very thankful the people that took care of me in the hospital were awesome. Right down to the housekeepers and all the way up to the charge nurse for the floor. Thank you all!!! Sad news over the weekend my neighbor Jim had a minor heart attack and fluid in the lungs. Sadly my neighbor passed away June 30th 8pm. Rest In Peace - Jim Gould. He was a wonderful neighbor both Jim and Sharon adopted me into there family after mom passed away. I had the blessing to have the ability to get the charge nurse to release me from my floor and be transported by wheel chair down to see Jim one last time. I'm home and doing rather quite well for a guy that had his bladder and prostate remove then 9 inches of my small intestine turned into my stoma and plumbing. Having a ostomy bag isn't the end of the world. After everything heals on me it won't be bad at all. I can mens urinals again. Yeah I've got to do some clothes shopping get shirts and different pants to work with my ostomy bag. It was awesome to sleep through the night at home. Another sad moment in time. Lost another friend to a very rare form of cancer that attacks the soft connective tissues in the body his started in his neck and between chemo and radiation wasn't enough and cancer won and took his life two days before my surgery. Rest In Peace - Randy which was a friend. Now the struggles of learning my new life after I heal for a good month. Like standing in front of the bathroom mirror and looking at my belly for really the first time. I've been cut all over my belly and have the doctor digging into me to create my urostomy. Yeah it looks like it hurts. but here shortly have some my holes heal up I can finally take normal showers with my ostomy bag. It will be like my first full shower in the hospital. I was like a little kid play in the water and running over my back and my head having a ball. As for changing my ostomy bag it not hard at all but I'm going to take advantage of my 2 piece bag and just mount the base first before snapping the bag to the base so I can center the base hole easier over my stoma on my belly which is 1-3/8 for size for my base hole stoma is closer to 1-1/4 so there is a bit of give for mount and so I don't rub the stoma much. As for the hospital stay. I had more fun at night with nurses. I make a request for a night walk and nurse would vote on my 3 different wigs I brought along. Every one staff wise loved my avatar photo which is my black and purple hair and my black makeup. Change of shift I ended up with different staff so the fun always got started few hours after shift change. Most would inquire about my look and hair. Everyone enjoyed put smiles on even other patients i would happen to see on my walks.

Saturday update. I had a very busy day. It started with my PT doctor coming and checking if I can walk a flight of stairs. He want to see my black and blue hair of course with my black makeup. He loved it He suggested to go to my tube removal surgery that way. So transport came and picked me up and we hauled down to radiology lab to remove my kidney ports. All the surgeons love the black and blue hair. They prepped me and pull my left tubing out of my kidney. Again no pain drugs or anything. Started to work on my right and notice my Stent wasn't completely in my kidney but my doctor said it was fine. The surgeon pulled my right tube out and was a rush of warm liquid on my back. I asked if that was blood. Nope it pissed urine out my back! No joke. After 6 months of those tubes I've got tunnels to my kidneys so it will take time to heal shut. My OT drop by and said there is nothing left to do being I'm getting up shaving, brushing my teeth and putting on makeup. Then my ostomy nurse came by to do another training again with my bag. I'm learning how to measure my stoma so I can trim the bag to fit my stoma. I did good on trim work of the base. Made a mistake forgot to the backing cover. She caught my mistake. I've got to roll out a putty sealant for my bag base. I got that applied to the base. Then I got the solvents out to release the previous bag which is interresting to work with since it kind of alcohol based. I started getting the old bag detached and was feeling nauseous. I had my nurse grab me a chair and sat while I did that function. Quickly I started to sweat. I'm hitting my pain limit and knew I was going to have to lay down soon. My ostomy nurse took over and finish my bag applying it to my belly. My blood pressure was through the roof. Then the battle begins with most of the staff trying to treat my blood pressure which it's based on my pain but I know deal with pain the pressure will follow by falling. It hard to tell a nurse your not feeling pain but my pain is there. Really difficult to explain but they try to do their best to work with my phantom pain. Now shift change comes and my nurse assistant OMG she was so super cool Abby she has dyed hair as well. We hit it of really quick popping jokes back and forth. She enjoyed my make up and hair and love to show me off to her friends. I brought my black, black/blue and black/purple. When some requested a change I'd gladly walk to my room and swap out hair.

Side update. I was kind of napping and the housekeep knocked. OMG! This gal has pink in her hair and flower arrangement in back. Earrings are green succulent. We started talking and she goes to the Comic Con here in Boise. She started sharing photos. Very impressive artist makeup and dress wise. This was a real pick me up for me being I'm laying here in bed with my makeup on as well. She enjoyed the Goth look of my black makeup and hair. Sadly it was quick chat as she finished cleaning my room. She for sure could dress up as several characters and fit the part. Just WOW! Surprising who you'll meet in a hospital.

Seen my doctor this morning just as I was starting to do my makeup. I'm cancer free as far as he knows in all the pathology. I'm starting into solid foods today. I could get out of here by tomorrow but with the advent of there being no ostomy trained people in McCall I'd rather stay here for the weekend and the get out Monday morning. Here is the other good news my kidney function is improving greatly. Nothing but positive news. I'm ordering breakfast and getting to eat solid foods with low fiber. Had even the Chaplin made a visit this morning and it was the same one from my chemo office so we had a wonderful chat.

Thanks for all the well wishes from everyone. It's been a quite the ride so far. Learning about my ostomy bag. Then working on walking and building my strength. Even doing a early morning 4am walk this morning. I'm so ready for solid food. Blood sugar is starting to drop and needing to recharge with just apple juice. Yeah been on a liquid diet since the surgery trying to restart my bowels again. Yeah my only hang up is all the pain meds require me to be on 2L/min of oxygen as I sleep. Oh do I sleep very well with all the meds. I'm working on sitting up and doing my makeup for the day. All the nurse love the look as I'm walking the halls. Wait till I leave I'll be in makeup wearing my black scrubs and black hair. Yes I planned that. I'm handling all this very well try to keep everyone laughing. My night assistant nurse sneaked in and woke me by draining my urine bag. I told her I can feel the movement on my leg. Geez I know my junk don't work but just get a handful. She was laughing hard I was too I paid with the pain of laughter.

I'm starting to do my training for my ostomy bag. Which I've got to change every 3 to 4 days. Yeah kind of funky to have a chunk of my small intestine poking out of my belly. I manage to cut the hole in the base need a bit of help smoothing the hole out. Then there is a putty to roll out in your hands to make a ring to help seal my bag. Got it all in place and change for the first time. Feeling good enough to do make and hair today.

I've ran both southbend and valair clutches no bias from me. Southbend Con OFE is bit grabby but a great single. Beast creating running a Valair organic dual disc performance. Thor is running the valair dual disc organic but quiet towing. Mostly at the time price was the factor but I wanted to try different products to see which one lasted the longest.

MADE IT THRU 7 HOUR SURGERY! No longer have my bag buddies. Those have been removed. I've now got my stoma on my belly and my ostomy bag. They want to get me up and walking soon. Still dealing with moderate abdominal pain yet.

Thank you pilothouse. Yeah I know I'm going to come out the other side of this. The good Lord has a purpose for me yet. I'm going to beat this cancer for the second time also for the last time. It's really hard to have bladder cancer again if my bladder is missing. What will I be able to do? Not sure till I learn how my new body works. Even my current body took me 4 months to master. Now I get to start over again with a stoma on my belly and learn how to change my bags. At least I'll be able to stand up to pee again currently I typically have to bend over to drain at my ankles. In the truck I can pee out the truck door without much effort. Being my current bags are just strapped to my leg just a mere 300ml could make the bags slide down my leg and start to pull on the tube in my back. That starts to burn at my stitch in my back. Then most of the time I can't tell if I need to drain or not. Remember my body can't sense if I'm full or not. I've got this weird habit of rubbing both legs starting at the top and slide both hands down my legs I can feel the amount in each bag. All my friends know what I'm doing but to a stranger it seems weird. Yeah I've adapted to my new life quite well but now after surgery I get to relearn again. UGH! The bonus is no longer have to got to go to the hospital every week to change my dressing on my back. Then every two weeks change my bags. All of this stops. Now I'll have it all on my belly just right of my belly button. Yeah I've got to find out how much I can do with my new body after I heal and the doctor releases me for work. I've been watch tiktok videos of gals with ostomy bags. It's not like I have no idea. I'll have full crew in the hospital that will train me on my new setup. I'm also going to take the offer of joining ostomy support groups. Then ive got another member that also has a ostomy bag as well and been invited to learn from him to and he lives near Boise ID. Like I know I've got to buy some different clothing. Some of my shirt might not cover my bag completely. Them my older pants are bit tight since I've gained dome weight. I'm not sure till I can get back to normal life where I walk, jog and being my normal active self which 6 months later I've got abit heavy. Like today I've gotta pack to head to Boise. I'm taking all my makeup and 3 wigs so I can still raise hell in the hospital. Yeah it's strange that total strangers tend to love my new look. That part of me might never change back kind of like my body with what my surgery will do to me. I'll be forever altered. Even all the member that I've stayed in touch with like what they see. Like I was on the phone last night talking to a member in Texas and he's the same way everyone accepts what they see as my new me. No I'm not afraid or ashamed of what I'm doing with make up. I might learn enough to be a makeup artist as another side hustle. Eventually I won't be shy to the idea of just hanging out with my shirt off. There is different products to cover and protect my bag at the same time be without my shirt. Like right now my crew here at home are used to me wandering around with my bags in my pockets of my scrub shirt. I've already planned I'm going to take my black scrubs to the hospital being they are light and comfortable. Then wear my black hair. Yeah I'm going to continue to the last moment. Then when recover it will be much more easier to get dressed and drive home when I'm released. I've only have 4 to 7 days stay tops. Being I don't feel pain as normal I might get out at the 4th day but we will see. It's all based on how soon I can get up and walk. I'll keep you all posted.

Exactly.

Beast (2002) has the Valair performance dual disc organic clutch. Then Thor (2006) has the Valair quiet towing dual disc organic clutch. Both are rated around 500 HP. Great daily driving quality and not super grabby. Beast is pulling so much power heading up a 7% grade I can fry the tires on dry pavement heading up the grade. Thor I was planning on dropping a MM3 tuner which I figure about 500 to 600 HP. Now with Beast and the Quadzilla I've got a heavy timing curve and produces some serious power but little EGT (750-800°F climbing a grade) or engine oil (172°F) heat. I'm also running a 200°F 6.7L thermostat because I need extra heat for performance. Coolant temp rolls over to -40°F when above 204°F. Interstate travel at 70 MPH.

Man what a struggle. My left port in my kidney is being super sensitive. I just walked next door to my neighbors place to talk to him. By the time I walked back I'm bleeding in my bag on my left. Went back to my bedroom to lay down. In about 30 minutes it clears up and I can purge my bag. I've only got a few days left with my bags on my back and it would take 7 days to schedule a surgery to change my tubes. Other words I'm going to be strong and just chill out and wait till surgery. I ran to town and got two large pizza for the 3 of us here and enjoyed a mini party to celebrate the end of my bags in back and possibly start my new life with my surgery which will set up my new bag on my belly. I won't be able to eat solid food for awhile being my surgeon will use about 8 to 9 inches of my small intestine to make my stoma. No I have no choice, I must continue with my surgery to remove my bladder to get rid of my bladder cancer. No its not possible it get bladder cancer again without a bladder. Sadly I'm going to be alone during this. My friend Tianne I was suppose to stay at her place but she is having health issues and doesn't want to foul my surgery. I'll be glad to get the new setup so I can hook up a larger bag at night so I can sleep all night long. I should have the limitations I have now once I'm healed up. Again I'm not going to be the same person and not capable of doing things like I did in the past. Now I'm going to have to relearn how to do everything again. Took me 4 months to figure out life with my current bags. At least I won't need to go to the hospital to change my dressings anymore. Everything will be on my belly and easier for me to take care of.

P0236 is basically boost too high too long. Most likely the boost fooler is failing or the MAP sensor is unplugged.

It could be slipping. I've seen several where the friction disc is fine but the flywheel and pressure plate are grooved because the ceramic is harder than pressure plate and flywheel.

Thank you @leety. i got some sleep last night. Still tired this morning from the mental stress and dont get much of a break mentally now. This does NOT mean to all of you not to call me. PLEASE do call me i enjoy talking about trucks and Cummins diesels. That is a excellent way for me to shift focus for me. Now back up time to the start of this thread where i was pissed about people saying "I'll Pray for you!" Do you know every single person that said that phrase has disappeared from my life? They don't even have the time to call and just be a friend for me in a time for me. No prayers didn't resolve the pain or the mental stresses I've had to endure. Still have to thank the members here that have been there for me and spent many hours just listening to me spill my guts trying to handle all this. Even all the businesses that have been there for me like motels I still to this day visit the staff and keep them informed on what's happening. Even my chemo staff I'll sneak in and say Hi! Everyone is curious of my next makeup or hair trick I'm always giving a surprise. Example when I had lunch at Country Kitchen the waitress was my bar tender and she let me know when restrictions are lifted she wants to make me a drink to celebrate the end of cancer on the house of course. Side story... Being I got to Boise early I stopped in the Boise Town Square Mall and headed to Spencer's and Hot Topic looking for new spiked collar for my look. I must of spent a good hour between two stores talking to staff and being asked about my look. Now ive got to whip out my phone and start showing off photos. Typically my black and purple is a woman favorite. All these gals are going nuts with the photos and wished I was wearing my black and purple. Sigh so again I'll make it a point to wear my black and purple and visit these stores again. Why? You have no idea how much help / support I'll get from people. Now when I do this I typically get a free bonus somewhere in my day. Example like my bar tender wanting to do me a free drink. My cancer this time has forever changed me physically and mentally. Since December 18th I've been pack my pair of bags on my legs still even right now. Even after surgery and getting my stoma I'll still be packing a bag. Mentally I was altered at New Years Eve when I was ready to quit and give up. Sitting in my living room crying not knowing if I can handle all this and what was leveled on me for TWO Christmases. (Dec. 27, 19 and Dec. 17, 23). Something popped in me and I forced myself past the fear and unknown. Got on the phone called Erica for a dinner date. I got showered and make up on and ENJOYED New Years Eve with a gal I've never met. This was more or less the start point where I continued to do my makeup daily and never looked back. Now the dinner date got fun for me. The Chinese place I went in Donnelly I had the staff all talking to me because of my make up improved and appearance improved. Then going to bar in McCall and drinking a Pepsi and having very rich well to do people talking to me. This created my Tiktok channel because the while night was super fun and I got to forget about my medical issues for a short time. My Titanium TikTok account https://www.tiktok.com/@titaniumgoth?_t=8nNxjaEXPVm&_r=1 Even considering my mechanic work I miss it so bad. I'm being open minded still to find out how much I can do after my surgery. Currently since my ports in my back have needles into my kidneys just simple actions can make me bleed and require me to stop and go lay down. I've had a very restrictive life. I'm hoping my surgery gives me back some of my freedom to at least play in my shop again. Time will tell... Now the song above Ain't Life Grand now when you watch it the lyrics will make even more sense now with this post. "I would trade it for nothing, No, I wouldnt change it ever it's too long to live it for nothing So, this is my mood forever" - Nope I'm not going to change my appearance or my business I'm going to continue. "Only ones I keep around me is my fam, No coincidence, it's always been the plan, And I always keep it trilly with the fans" Yeah all you that have been there for me are my fam now. This why those I talk to know my full story. "The voices in my head they used to make me wanna break down, had me hella weighed down, had me in a corner, had beat but I'm okay now. True to what they say, if there's a will, then there's a way out. Took all of my dreams, I took em back cause I'm awake now" - Now after fighting my mental battles I jump into the makeup and got dressed up and made my way out to see life can still be fun even with all my medical issues. I've got to say THANK YOU to all that called me to let me vent or physically came over to the house to help me do things I can't do.

This week has been very busy and tiring. I had two appointments in Boise for my cancer. Monday (17th) the first appointment was to have an hour long class on my new bladder bag that I'll be wearing on my belly. Then check list of all the things that will cause issues or death. Well of course this pegged my anxiety and ramped up my blood pressure. My nurse was in a hurry to finish up to get me over to my other appointment. So after hiking back to my truck and fighting traffic to go 3 block to my other appointment. Running a bit late and checked in and I was taken in back and before I could unwind or clear the thoughs of my previous appointment my blood pressure was high. I'm more or less ready for surgery and getting my bladder and prostate removed. Knowing my anxiety is ramped up I got ahold of my psychiatrist. Made an appointment for Thursday 20th. Tuesday (18th) I was home but had to go to McCall to get medications. I got all my meds for colon cleaning being I'm going to have 8 to 9 inches of my small intestine used as my stoma. All my meds are here ready to go. Wednesday (19th) I ran back to Boise and got my stoma located on my belly so my bag can hang. Another hour appointment more questions and answers on sanitizing and cleaning. Then ran back over to the hospital to get my ensure surgery drinks. Don't ask this is a super rare product that is hard to even get. The nurse told me her team will do a full education on my stoma, bag, proper cleaning and maintenance. Then as for today Thursday (20th) I had my video visit with my psychiatrist. I was having a tough time the last 3 days getting sleep because my not allow to smoke my vape. My anxiety was getting the best of me. Well like Michael was telling me that my hair and makeup is a coping mechanism that allows me to handle the stress and anxiety of my cancer and surgery to come. Michael told me to continue to enjoy the look and I'm handling my change of my body quite well and he actually enjoys my appearance. Yes, was all video visit over the phone. I started to unload a bit more and my voice started cracking because I was nearly to tears trying to handle what I have. He tries to reassure me that everything will work out. Yeah it has been a crazy few days I'm mentally and physically tired. I'm going to attempt to rest as much as possible. I need to be strong to handle the next step of 6 to 7 hours of surgery. Which requires me to be up at 4:30am for meds and then be over to the hospital at 5:30am. I'll be staying at the Guest House in Boise then walk over to the hospital. My surgery is roughly 6 to 7 hours. Then I'll stay over at the hospital for 4 to 7 days and released. As for my make up work I've got nurse and doctors giving my high fives and props for my appearance. Some of the staff I promised to bring my black/blue, black/purple and black wigs and all my make up. When I leave I'll leave in my raw state without makeup. I plan on having my wigs and makeup there. I'm going to attempt to do a tiktok video at the hospital and post it here as well just so all you know I'm alive and still here on the planet. With my current bags my last 5 months has been very limiting on what i can do. Having everything moved to the front on my belly will allow me to handle the bag much easier for cleaning and draining compared to my leg bags now. Im still trying to be open minded on what possiblities that might come with my new front location. I still know i can drop a transfer case on my belly like ive done for 20 years now. Im hoping i can get back to doing some basic mechanic work. Im miss working in my shop. I miss working on my trucks and the minivan. Yes I've got a wicked stare I can do.

I heard this song on Pandora as I was coming home from a doctor visit and heard the song. I actually stopped in Ontario OR and played the lyrics as I ate lunch. Very fitting song for what going on in my life.

Well my time is running short my surgery is June 25th now. I'm first thing in the morning. 7:30am. My surgery will be 6 hours long. My bladder and prostate will be removed. I'll be in the hospital for 14 days. This will be my longest stay. I plan on having as much fun as I can. I plan on taking all my makeup and a few of my wigs and enjoy the hell raising im going to do in the hospital.

Doing all I can with Beast with all my medical appointments and most of them being in Boise ID. With even today it was a bit more than a 1/4 tank to get home but I had to school a flatlander how to run the canyon. Sure couldn't keep up with Beast.

Just made a run at 80 MPH in 90 degree weather on I84 to Boise for a doctor appt.

Another update. Still very controlled temperatures on Beast. We are hitting 90°F here and even climbing 7% grade it's still very controlled floating 200 to 208°F coolant temperatures and 170 to 175°F engine oil temperature. 100 to 110°F IAT temperarure. No updates to the Quadzilla tune being it still very wicked pulling a 25 MPH corner at 40 to 45 MPH and feel the rear tires break loose and keep powering the corner. Very sweet power even on level 3.

I remember my 1976 Dodge Jamboree was a hot son of a ****** that would burn my foot on a long haul. Exhaust manifold with in inches of my throttle foot and the steel would cook my carpet. Yeah 360 CID V8 and running 3500 RPMs would create some heat. Ugh.

Awesome. Looks really good. Lots of room. Still heat shield the pipe again for air space too.

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